Got to update when is my birthday lol! anyways, turning 21 is all good! should be decent! upload few pics ^^

the present i got from Leo zhai

my favorite convient shoe for all time!! thanks to certain someone ^^

that was my present for her, she LOVES it ^^

the burning tourch the flower that Shu give me for my bday ^^ smell sooooo goood! my room smells so nice now ^^

Happy 21st birthday to me!!!

how many time i have to say i hate my life? and keep telling myself i should smile and be happy? i dont know, sigh... i know the past year is been the worse year ever for me...but it was quite of exprience for me, even tho i know i did alot of things thats bad....and now i'm making up for it...wiping my arse off right now..for along time i guess.

i guess it does help me alot, when i let it out...u know... i'm happy now , but there is alot of things out there for me to learn...i wasted my year...at college..this year i should pick up more...i guess i'm not strong enough right now...i keep thinking i'm in bad luck and all...and keep telling myself that tomorrow be better...but how long can i keep doing this? i shoudnt ask myself that how long i can keep doing this...cuz that means i already give up...NO, i cant ask myself that...i have to be strong...every next day will be a better day...i need to keep thinking of that!!!!!  I NEED TO BE STRONG!!! i wont let this luck to shoot me down, i dont care what comes to my ways!! i will NOT be SHOT DOWN!!!! and i will not EVERRRRR give up on what i want to do!!!! THIS YEAR IS MYYYY YEAR!!! I DONT CARE WHAT PUT ME DOWN, I WILL WORK HARD!!! I dont care if ppl laugh at me on what i want to become!!  I DO WHAT I WANT TO DO!!! not because of someone else want me to do!!!!! I dont care ppl laugh at me on majoring music, interior design, i dont care if they say "yep, good luck, do ur best" in sarcastic way, i STILL BELIEVE in me, so WHAT if is hard? LIFE IS HARD! LIFE IS DAMN HARD AS A DIAMOND! and WE ALL NEED TO PRECIOUS THAT ONE AND ONLY DIAMOND! CUZ THIS IS THE ONLY ONE DIAMOND WE ALL HAVE AND NEED TO TREASURE! and we cannot, let me say it again, CANNOT LET GO! unless u end ur life...now that just stupid.

who gives a damn about my ex and my 8 years ex best friend going out now, i dont care, they can do what they want, cuz it ant my problem now

my life is full of happiness, i have friends who cares about me, i love basketball, i love music, i love singing, i love designing, AND THAT IS what i DO. NO ONE can stop me from doin all that. I was stupid i let someone control over me, but now i stand up strong, i can say NO, i do this my way! oh yea, i'm doing it.

I WILL THINK POSITIVE AT ALL TIMES, DO MY BEST TO THINK OF IT THAT WAY, NOT NEGATIVES! I WILL HELP THOSE WHO ALWAYS NEGATIVES, BECAUSE THINKING NEGATIVES MEANS U ALREADY LOST, U GIVED UP. AND THIS IS WHAT I ALWAYS WILL SAY "NEVER GIVE UP, EVER"

Today was a nice day, even tho i was lack of slp..but is aight because i was helping my friend Cherry finishing her speech since she cant use computer last night, so i helped her over the phone, so didnt slp till 3 am and then woke up around 6:30 to deliver the assignment (good thing i took 3 hours nap before i went to work last night...lol)then i scared the crap outta Sherry lol, that was funny!! she thought i was insane..and then everyone i knew was wondering why i was there so early lol...anyways, so i slpt at my school's parking lot for an hour and went to class. After class i went home...and put up my Jessica Alba poster along with the frame that was in the basement! now i'm waiting for Leo and Jack so we can go play pool...then i have to work..

upload some pics

Jiaqi's bday party

the awsome cake!

my drawing for my basic design class...but the one on the left..doesnt go with the assignment...T-T...and i think it looks better

Sherry!! at a hang out at the new Taiwanese Snack place!

My Friend Eric! CONGRADULATION!!! on u know wha hehehehee ~_^

hehe!

so there u go ^^...update more later ba!

well...right now is 9 am..i woke up around 6am to go to school early to practice singing...so far...not a good day >___< i sliped on my door way in the morning and while at it, my head phone for my cell got snatched between the door...so basically i riped my headset....well, it did save me from falling down the stair...(it exchange it's life for my T_T)and then at the gas station, i steped on a puddle...but good thing i caught it on my eyes on the last second...so i didnt get my pants wet. and then now i was in my class waiting till 12:30...a lady came in said there is class at 9...which i did not know about...a tai chi class...omg...so right now is 9 am..and i wanted to be in that damn room to practice my songs...there were nothing on monday schedule...and then the class dont get out till 12...i'm like...what am i going to do for 3 hours now...i shoulda did this on monday...i guess i will start it next week. god dang it. and i was hoping to see someone...i guess not...this sucks..i was ready for everything...and right now is not going what i was planed.. T_______T

so my choices right now to is...

1. Go to my car and slp (sounds really tempting...but no)

2. Go to my car and go to a store to return bottles for cash (Yea, i think i will do that since i need some cash on me)

3. stay at school and play guitar ( I can do that afternoon...so i'll wait)

4. Sit here and wait till the class to end (Heck no...waste of my time!)

here is few new pics of my new necklaces and some pics

i took his idea for my neckalces lol